not because the world has grown quieter,
but because my heart can no longer bear its weight.
And in that moment, I whisper—almost to myself—
“Chorono dhorite diyo go amare.”
Let me hold Your feet.
I do not ask for the storms to stop.
I only ask for one small corner near Your feet—
a place where my restless mind can pause,
a place where my weary heart can unclench.
Because I have walked too long with pride as my companion,
and it has given me nothing but distance.
Distance from others,
distance from myself,
distance from You.
I realise how easily I forget that I am not meant to travel alone.
So I stand here—
not as a righteous being,
not as a flawless devotee,
but simply as a soul
who is tired of pretending to be strong.
Let me hold Your feet,
not as one who deserves,
but as one who longs.
over my desires,
over my ego,
over the expectations I built like fragile castles.
Each time I fell, I thought I had moved farther away from You.
But now I know:
even my falling was within the circle of Your compassion.
Still, I fear surrender.
What if I lose myself?
What if letting go makes me small?
But then a voice within says:
“You lose nothing when you surrender to the Eternal.
You only lose what was never truly yours.”
So here I am,
placing the last fragments of my resistance at Your feet.
I no longer wish to carry the burden of being “enough.”
I only wish to be true.
so that I may remember who I am beyond my worries,
beyond my ambitions,
beyond my trembling.
Let my tears wash away the dust of my journey.
Let my heart settle into the rhythm of Your silence.
Let humility cleanse me.
Let love reshape me.
If I must fall, let me fall at Your feet.
If I must rise, let me rise from Your touch.
For in the shelter of Your feet
every fear softens,
every doubt dissolves,
every wandering finds its way home.
Let me rest here.
Let me stay here.
Let this surrender be my prayer,
my identity,
my peace.



